This won't last
I said to myself out loud
with perfect clarity
as though my speech
is like most human beings
It is at this moment
But it won't last
I tell myself I should
not get used to this
it'll only do more harm
than good if I let
myself enjoy these
fluid moments of
pure speech
and pretend to be
like everyone else
But I do
because I'm human
I let myself fall for
something I know could
go away at any second
With one switch
everything will change
my reality will be different
my thoughts will be gray
my speech will stumble
my voice will vanish
and the replacement
will be the thing I
will naturally despise
and want desperately
to hide
It's hard to accept
what I don't wish to
acknowledge and
would rather push
every thought that
could help to the
back of my mind
and lock it up like
everything is fine and
the world is glorious
I'm trying though
trying to accept
who I am
so when the
stutter and stumbles
return I'll be prepared
to embrace everything
as best I can
Right now I'm at war
with myself
not knowing where to shoot
hoping by good luck
I have defeated the problem
Waiting for the enemy
to show it's face
so we can make peace
and find a way to
live around each other
without destruction
Right now is good
right now is fine
I'm trying to enjoy
the place I'm at
while mentally preparing
for what's to come
knowing the war
could resume
at anytime
Ready to make peace
with who I am
to stop the war
I face each day
My inner monologue
I want to silent
and put to rest
so we can work
together to tackle
the world without
conflict and tears
It's possible
I believe this
to be true
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